Little girl, you are my entire world and I will stand by you forever.
This journey has been absolutely amazing and we are so beyond grateful for each and every one of you who has joined in celebrating and supporting this amazing journey with us. Ali means the absolute world to our entire family and we want the absolute best for her, even if it hurts. My husband recently lost his job and without his income we are not in the position to proceed with her adoption and it KILLS us. We are VERY hopeful that he will regain employment in the very near future and none of this will matter but that fact is right now it matters. Right now, my heart is bleeding and broken, it is with great sadness, but extreme love for Ali that we have decided that it is currently in her best interest to remove our commitment.
Satan is great at attacking those on the right path and we all know this, we're choosing to look at this job loss in that perspective and that there is a job right around the corner that will be even better for our family, our adoption, our future adoptions, and life in general. PRAY. Pray that he regains employment in the next two weeks. Pray that Ali is well loved and protected during the winter months. Pray that God shows us his master plan in all this because right now we just feel hurt, and pain, and anger. And we want to know WHYYYY, Why in the world this is happening? why are we facing such a trying time? Why now?
Ali was listed on Reece's Rainbow in February of 2012. I LOVED her, the day she was posted, I LOVED her. Tiny, raw gnawed on wrists, word that she was severely delayed and not walking or talking. I loved her. Never once did I see anyone rally for her, she was one of the left behind, the unnoticed, but always at the forefront of my mind and my heart. We didn't qualify in February though due to age requirements and it was eating away at us inside, she meant the world to us but we couldn't do anything to help her. I talked to a mom who had recently adopted from Ali's mental institution and she told me, sadly she would most likely still be available in 18 months when we did qualify, could it have really been in God's plan to make her wait 18 months for us? In May, just 3 months after we fell in love, the rules changed, we all of a sudden qualified which left us in awe and scrambling to get things in order. We commited to Ali on October 1st and the only thing I can think to compare it to is a twenty week ultrasound, "It's a Girl. She's Perfect. She has Down Syndrome. She's yours" , that's all I can think to compare it too, was surreal, I still look at our FSP in awe that our name ever was or ever could be worthy of being next to her name. Things are different now though families have met Ali, people are seeing what we see, Ali is one loved, extremely blessed and watched over little girl. That girl is going to move mountains and change the world.
It is with great honor to announce my maternal love for her. I love her in a way that hurts and destroys, in a way that wants to do right by her.
We have removed our commitment to Ali (Mabel on Reece's Rainbow) because we are not willing to waste her time. She is almost EIGHT YEARS OLD and if my husband gets a job next week and we can recommit she will likely here my celebration all the way from Eastern Europe, but what if he doesn't get a job this week or next week, or the week after that? I can't hold her back, her country has done that for 7 1/2 years, I love her too much to do that, I owe her more than that.
ALI IS AVAILABLE FOR ADOPTION